Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in sububi04's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
9:24 am	Here is to Tomorrow One difference between college and Bay View is the boys lol.  That is an overwhelming factor.  But besides that life has been interesting.  I am resorting back to some old ways of life which is bad, but it sucks because now i don't have that one person (nicole) who actually helped me through everything last year, so it is going to be a new experience.  But ya...im not really up for talking, but lets just say that I wish that things could be the way they were last month.... *FpC is awesome.  Tons of friends...tons of fun (hehehe).  I just wish the BvA girls would be here...or even the highway hommies (if that is still going on)... because that would be perfecto!!  ******college is an amazing time so fucking live it up bitches!!!                                                                       muahz to ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: drained Current Music: our time is running out... (how ironic because it did) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
11:03 am	Hot Chocolate gives me the shits...?     I have been so incredibly busy at school that I have forgotten some of the more important aspects of my life.  I e-mailed Mrs. Nevola to basically thank her for her intervention last year, because it was really needed.  But i guess that i should be really thanking Sarah for actually telling someone.  I know that it was a very bold step that she made, and I feel bad that I never gave her the proper thanks for it.  Being up here makes me feel completely happy.  Of course my friends from back home mean the world to me, but i have formed bonds up here that cannot be broken.  Whether I am laughing at Tina's random ass comments, or discussing sex with Jaime, Watching tv with the girlz, or even having my indepth late ass conversations with Jess and John, i know that i am loved.  the feeling is amazing, and I know that i am goiong to miss my friends sooooo much over Christmas Break.  Like to have a roomate that i honestly luv, and to have friends that i feel the same way about makes my current transition go so much easier.  College is so freakin awesome.  I was talking to Badway last night online, and o do i miss her stinky ass.  Whether I called her up crying because I was stressed out about mi padre, or whether we are talking about the guys up here...or even if we are talking about Nick blair i know that she can make me feel better.  It is a shame that I still feel the urge to cry up here because of HORRIBLE words being said back home, but you know what...it is not up to me to cure all the hate in the world.  Not everyone is going to like me I learned.  I just wish that offensive things can be kept in people's heads because it is not right, and I will not tolerate it.  But neways, besides that....not much is going on up here.  I really want to stay here for Halloween weekend...it should be fucking chaos.  I have plans to go to Salem....but i really am thinking that i wanna stay in the dorms.. and maybe do some candy swapping lol.  But like I said before, life is fucking insane.  Insane in both good ways and badways... (get it badway? jk lol luv ya).  It amazes me how good life can be sometimes.  I know with the whole "fight" with Nicole a couple of weeks ago that it was really weird to hang out with Badway just because of the tension...but i know everything will turn itself right.  My life isnt focused into finding that perfect guy out there, nor is my life focused on drinking and throwing away $30,000.  I guess that I am just focusing my life on living the way that I want to live it.  I have made some mistakes in the past but I have learned from them. I have been able to completely focus my life here on the relationships that I form with people, and the relationship that I form with myself.  With the help of my friends here I know that I will be able to love myself completely again...and to fill that empty love that was one present in my life.  I love life and whether someone decides to judge me for it go ahead.  "....And if I offended you, O IM sorRY, but maybe you needed to be offended, and one more thing heres my apology...FUCK YOU"  lol ya gotta love me! Love everyone's favorite WigGa... Ashley muahz PS, I really want to hear some feedback from all of my cool cats out there.  Make it nice please lol muahz to al! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: no music...Jaime is sleeping (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 16th, 2004
5:35 pm	Tree Men and Bird Women I just got back from the Ren Fair with Jess, Carl, and Nicole.  It was wikid fun.  John did his thing and it was so cool to watch, so big props to him...i am impressed.  But neways, over the past couple of days I have learned a lot about my friends from FPC, and it helped.  I have been 100% pure with the FPC group, and I feel that we have all bonded closer.  Times were rough, yet they became calmer with help of close friends.  This past week i have grown closer with my roomate, and my FPC friends, and especially Jess and John.  I dunno...life is so good right now up here in NH that i dont really need to go back home...although there are some things at home that i miss.  But neways, im off to be out of control....because having no boundary is the way to live.  I am free from the negativity that exists in some people back in RI, and im free to be me with the FPC group that i live with.  I can't wait to move up to NH during the summer, because im sure that my life will  be completely perfect by then.                                                                                                                                                     <333333333 Me muahz Current Mood: grumpy Current Music: get busy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 14th, 2004
6:12 am	I feel like I had to get another livejournal...to let everyone into my mind.  My old one still exists so don't be scared to hit that up.  But Franklin Pierce is actually growing on me.  I love it here.  I have the best friends, and the best times.  Whether it be from watching tv with the girlz, being able to talk with Jess and John at night, or just being crazy..my life has turned towards the better.  I have matured so much, and its weird.  Last weekend I came home and actually stayed at home.  I havent been able to do that in awhile.  The first weekend that I came home, I stayed for the first night...and then went off and did my own thing.  The next weekend I came home for literally 4 minutes to pick up my contacts...and I was off to FPC.  The next weekend nicole and my mom took off for a vacation to Keene, NH (@ her best friend's house).  Last weekend kim picked me up and i was home and hung out with all of the girls that i haven't talked to in so long.  Its awesome to get a phone call from someone who you thought would forget about you but didnt.  Between bowling, and dinner parties i realized my purpose in life.  I have all the friends that I have for a reason.  No matter how many times someone can put me down, I have people who can definetly bring me up.  I love my life up here at Franklin Pierce, only because I have found people who love me for who I am.  I never though that i could miss RI as much as i did before.  But i did, but that passed.  This weekend im going to see John in the Ren Fair.  If there are any takers to come that would be awesome.  With GSA and my social time, mixed in with homework, I have found my spot here.  I am to make other's happy...and im sorry if your not one of the people recieving the happiness.  I finally love life.  Last night i talked to Anthony on the phone, and i talked to everyone whom i havent talked to since I've come up here.  It's been sooooo busy, and I have no time, but I will have to make time.  Life has come into focus, and thanks to everyone's prayers...AsHLEY IS BACK!! woot woot!!!     Luvage to everyone...your one and only WigGa!!!  (lol o how i get nicknames) Current Mood: happy Current Music: the sounds of the golden girls (1 Comment |Comment on this)